Questions: 1. Meeting course objectives
1-What did you learn in this course?
I learned different writings techniques that I have never used before. I learned to think outside the box and that something’s may have more meaning behind it than it initially seems.
2-About the form of CNF?
I learned how write in metaphors and the art of suggestion. A lot of the writers we studied used the same technique.
3-What did you learn about how to write CNF?
I learned how to write a piece that has a certain theme, all of my writings before were just straight forward that left nothing to imagination.
4-About where to publish/find publishing venues for your creative writing?
There are many journals and thus there is something for everyone. I should research the journals and find the one that best fits my piece.
5-Did you change anything /try anything different in your writing process? Please describe.
I tried looking deeper into my essays. For instance, in the essay I wrote about all my friends moving away as I got older I actually wrote about how I felt when it happened instead of just writing what happened.
6-Which class assignments/class experiences helped you learn whatever you learned?
All of the essays and essay revisions helped me the most.
7-What do you wish the course spent more time on?
Everyone reading their own writings and having people give feedback.
Questions: 2. Structure of course/assignments Assignments
1-Right pace/schedule?
The pace was fine but sometimes hard to keep track because the calandar was a bit confusing.
2-Coherence of material?
I understood everything.
3-Workload => Too much, too little, just right? What would you change?
The workload was fine but I would recommend following the calendar better. I was lost a couple of times this semester because the calendar kept changing.
4-Cover material appropriate to course goals?
Yes. Covered a lot of things that helped me.
5-Enough feedback for grades?
Yes.
Questions: 3. Provisions for feedback/grades
1-Which form of feedback was most helpful?
The teacher conferences.
2-Which did you enjoy most?
The teacher conferences was the best cause it provided me with ideas and angles to my stories that I would have not have thought of.
3-Any which you felt was unproductive?
No.
4-What would you do more of?
reading others blog entries and leaving comments.
5-What would you do less of?
Public speaking and speaking in front of the class.
6-Did you feel the grading system was fair?
Yes.
7-Did the grades/grading system contribute to learning?
Yes.
Questions: 4. General response
1-Is there anything you could tell me that would help me teach a better/more engaging course?
When the class changed the calendar I got confused on what was the homework and when it was due. Following the calendar exactly as it was printed would have been much easier.
2-Anything you want to say about your experience of the course?
It was fun and I plan on taking more writing classes.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Blog 23: Essay 3 revision
It was the only time I have ever left America to go to a foreign country. It was a important trip that my parents still talk about to this day because it wasn't just the only time I ever been to their homeland but it was the last time they themselves have been in their homeland. At that time they had not been to their homeland in over ten years, they never meant to stay away for that long but they were side tracked with their career and the birth of my brother and I.
I remember the weeks leading up to the trip was so hectic, we had to get so much done before we could leave. My brother and I needed passports, the entire family needed to buy new clothes, we had to buy gifts for friends and family, and worst of all my brother and I needed to have all our shots taken before leaving the country. When ever I think back to the trip I always remember that day at the hospital as the beginning. I never remember crying as hard as I did that day, even as I got older and lots of memories of that trip faded, that particular day never did. I think in a strange way that day actually helped me remember the trip better, it was so traumatic that I couldn't forget it. But I was happy to finally get it over with so we could go on that trip we had been planning for so long.
Before the trip the only thing I knew about my parents country was that it was small, at the very edge of western Europe, mostly rural, and surrounded by several bigger and more powerful countries. Still it did have its own language and culture that differentiate it from the others around it. But from what little I remember from that trip twenty years ago is clouded. But to this day they still occasionally ask me if I remember certain aspects of the trip. I know its important to them that I remember something about where they are from because there is no guarantee that I will ever go back, but my memories from that far back are pretty hazy. Even the things I do think that I remember I end up questioning whether they really happened or not because of years of having my mind filled up by TV, Films, Ads, and other media.
My parents talk about leaving me their house in the old country, and I agree to take it because I know they want to keep it in the family. But I honestly don't know what I'll do with it, I know my life will be spent her in America so what will happened to the house? Going there occasionally every couple of years doesn't seem like a good use of the house, and what will happen when I hand it down to my children who probably won't care much for the house since I didn't even make it important to my life.
When I close my eyes and think about that trip 20 years ago the first thing I remember was the farm I visited. It was another first for me, I had grown up in the suburbs all my life and this was the first time at a farm. I actually liked it, I got to interact with animals I had only seen on Television. That first day was a warm summer scorcher that had everyone wanting to stay inside with the air conditioner. If you looked outside the grass was dry and yellow from the mini drought that was happening at that time. There wasn't a cloud in the sky which is normally a nice thing but it made everyone vulnerable to the suns intense and bright rays that day. The land was full of rolling hills with grass a foot high, with little smatterings of trees spread out along the land and providing shadows to escape the hot sun. There was supposed to be a creek that ran through our property, but it had dried up years before, you could see the cobble stone barricades that was supposed to contain the creek when there was a flood.
The barn was dilapidated and clearly hadn't been tended to in years. Blue paint was chipping off all around the barn, the big heavy wooden door was worped from all the rain and unable to close it. There was no floor inside, just hard dirt that would kicked up dust every time you took a step. A low hanging lamp that would dimly light the old rickety farm equipment that was covered in spider webs. In my eyes the place was a dump, but through the eyes of my parents they remember it fondly because that's how they grew up. I didn't understand it because my parents would always talk about how difficult they had it as children working on the farm, working from down to dusk, working their calicoesed hands to the point that they would bleed and shaking. But at the same time while it was a lot of work it was something their family had done to years, it was something that the family did together, and it was something that they did love. While their current job is so much more stressful and isolates them from the closeness of their family.
My brother would play outside a lot during the trip, we didn't like anything we saw on television and we had no video games to occupie or time. I remember while we were playing outside one day we got into an argument with some local kids. They were saying something about us but we couldn't understand what. It ended up both sides started throwing dirt rocks at each other, until my brother hit one of them in the eye. The kid started crying and went home to tell his parents, while me and my brother ran home and hid.
The other thing I remember about the trip was going with my family to see my mothers aunt a few towns over. I remember it because their was a huge winding road on a mountain that we had to ride through to get to their house. In fact it was so scary that it was the first thing I could remember having nightmares about. The road on that mountain was full of pot holes, no barriers on the edge of the road to protect a car from sliding off the road down the mountain, and hundreds of large loose rocks on top of the mountain that looked like they were ready to tumble down to the road with the slightest wind. It was getting dark as well, the sun was bright owange and coming down. I couldn't rest or relax until we finally got off that mountain and on to level and flat land. Each bump we hit would freak me out, but for some odd reason my dad would laugh at my horror. I have a feeling he was hitting those bumps on purpose for his entertainment.
After what seemed forever it finally did happen and we pulled up to my mothers aunts house which was much more modest than American home but still looked nice compared to the farm house we were at most of the week. It was made of brick, with red shingles on the roof of the one story home. Inside everyone was wearing the national colors of red and green while watching the national soccer team in the Euro cup or world cup, I wasn't sure but it was a huge soccer match that had everyone in the city wearing the national colors. That day itself was forgettable, the only thing I remember about it was spending the entire time in my mothers lap sleeping or shielding my face in her shoulder so I didn't have to deal with these strange people that I didn't know.
There were other kids my age there that I didn't know that were playing together, I was never comfortable just going up to people and playing with them, So I just sat there and literally did nothing. I was so bored that I just layed on the coach and slept, buit I was awaken by an old man who picked me up and hugged me. I did not know this man so I screamed like a banchi until my parents showed up. After a while they showed up but were smiling, they told me the man holding me was my grandfathers brother. My grandfather died before I was born and I had never met his brother, but once my parents told me who he was I settle down. I was happy to meet him because I always wanted to meet my grandfather. Though he isn't my grandfather I was told he was a lot like him. I never met him ever again after that day.
The last thing from the trip I actually forgot but was reminded by a photo my mom saved in a box from that trip. As soon as I saw that photo it all came back to me. It was from a a festival that I don't even know the name of, but I knew it was a catholic festival because of the religious statues and beeds they were handing out. The country is heavily catholic and you see it everywhere in the countries. That day was It was the only time I saw my mothers brother face to face who didn't come to America like all his other siblings and parents, but instead stayed closer to home and settled a 200 miles north east in Paris. That day my uncle gave my brother and I an old necklace thats been in the family for a very long time that my brother and I still have.
I remember the weeks leading up to the trip was so hectic, we had to get so much done before we could leave. My brother and I needed passports, the entire family needed to buy new clothes, we had to buy gifts for friends and family, and worst of all my brother and I needed to have all our shots taken before leaving the country. When ever I think back to the trip I always remember that day at the hospital as the beginning. I never remember crying as hard as I did that day, even as I got older and lots of memories of that trip faded, that particular day never did. I think in a strange way that day actually helped me remember the trip better, it was so traumatic that I couldn't forget it. But I was happy to finally get it over with so we could go on that trip we had been planning for so long.
Before the trip the only thing I knew about my parents country was that it was small, at the very edge of western Europe, mostly rural, and surrounded by several bigger and more powerful countries. Still it did have its own language and culture that differentiate it from the others around it. But from what little I remember from that trip twenty years ago is clouded. But to this day they still occasionally ask me if I remember certain aspects of the trip. I know its important to them that I remember something about where they are from because there is no guarantee that I will ever go back, but my memories from that far back are pretty hazy. Even the things I do think that I remember I end up questioning whether they really happened or not because of years of having my mind filled up by TV, Films, Ads, and other media.
My parents talk about leaving me their house in the old country, and I agree to take it because I know they want to keep it in the family. But I honestly don't know what I'll do with it, I know my life will be spent her in America so what will happened to the house? Going there occasionally every couple of years doesn't seem like a good use of the house, and what will happen when I hand it down to my children who probably won't care much for the house since I didn't even make it important to my life.
When I close my eyes and think about that trip 20 years ago the first thing I remember was the farm I visited. It was another first for me, I had grown up in the suburbs all my life and this was the first time at a farm. I actually liked it, I got to interact with animals I had only seen on Television. That first day was a warm summer scorcher that had everyone wanting to stay inside with the air conditioner. If you looked outside the grass was dry and yellow from the mini drought that was happening at that time. There wasn't a cloud in the sky which is normally a nice thing but it made everyone vulnerable to the suns intense and bright rays that day. The land was full of rolling hills with grass a foot high, with little smatterings of trees spread out along the land and providing shadows to escape the hot sun. There was supposed to be a creek that ran through our property, but it had dried up years before, you could see the cobble stone barricades that was supposed to contain the creek when there was a flood.
The barn was dilapidated and clearly hadn't been tended to in years. Blue paint was chipping off all around the barn, the big heavy wooden door was worped from all the rain and unable to close it. There was no floor inside, just hard dirt that would kicked up dust every time you took a step. A low hanging lamp that would dimly light the old rickety farm equipment that was covered in spider webs. In my eyes the place was a dump, but through the eyes of my parents they remember it fondly because that's how they grew up. I didn't understand it because my parents would always talk about how difficult they had it as children working on the farm, working from down to dusk, working their calicoesed hands to the point that they would bleed and shaking. But at the same time while it was a lot of work it was something their family had done to years, it was something that the family did together, and it was something that they did love. While their current job is so much more stressful and isolates them from the closeness of their family.
My brother would play outside a lot during the trip, we didn't like anything we saw on television and we had no video games to occupie or time. I remember while we were playing outside one day we got into an argument with some local kids. They were saying something about us but we couldn't understand what. It ended up both sides started throwing dirt rocks at each other, until my brother hit one of them in the eye. The kid started crying and went home to tell his parents, while me and my brother ran home and hid.
The other thing I remember about the trip was going with my family to see my mothers aunt a few towns over. I remember it because their was a huge winding road on a mountain that we had to ride through to get to their house. In fact it was so scary that it was the first thing I could remember having nightmares about. The road on that mountain was full of pot holes, no barriers on the edge of the road to protect a car from sliding off the road down the mountain, and hundreds of large loose rocks on top of the mountain that looked like they were ready to tumble down to the road with the slightest wind. It was getting dark as well, the sun was bright owange and coming down. I couldn't rest or relax until we finally got off that mountain and on to level and flat land. Each bump we hit would freak me out, but for some odd reason my dad would laugh at my horror. I have a feeling he was hitting those bumps on purpose for his entertainment.
After what seemed forever it finally did happen and we pulled up to my mothers aunts house which was much more modest than American home but still looked nice compared to the farm house we were at most of the week. It was made of brick, with red shingles on the roof of the one story home. Inside everyone was wearing the national colors of red and green while watching the national soccer team in the Euro cup or world cup, I wasn't sure but it was a huge soccer match that had everyone in the city wearing the national colors. That day itself was forgettable, the only thing I remember about it was spending the entire time in my mothers lap sleeping or shielding my face in her shoulder so I didn't have to deal with these strange people that I didn't know.
There were other kids my age there that I didn't know that were playing together, I was never comfortable just going up to people and playing with them, So I just sat there and literally did nothing. I was so bored that I just layed on the coach and slept, buit I was awaken by an old man who picked me up and hugged me. I did not know this man so I screamed like a banchi until my parents showed up. After a while they showed up but were smiling, they told me the man holding me was my grandfathers brother. My grandfather died before I was born and I had never met his brother, but once my parents told me who he was I settle down. I was happy to meet him because I always wanted to meet my grandfather. Though he isn't my grandfather I was told he was a lot like him. I never met him ever again after that day.
The last thing from the trip I actually forgot but was reminded by a photo my mom saved in a box from that trip. As soon as I saw that photo it all came back to me. It was from a a festival that I don't even know the name of, but I knew it was a catholic festival because of the religious statues and beeds they were handing out. The country is heavily catholic and you see it everywhere in the countries. That day was It was the only time I saw my mothers brother face to face who didn't come to America like all his other siblings and parents, but instead stayed closer to home and settled a 200 miles north east in Paris. That day my uncle gave my brother and I an old necklace thats been in the family for a very long time that my brother and I still have.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Blog 22
History:Mid-American Review was started in 1972 by Robert Early, a professor of creative writing at Bowling Green State University, as Itinerary, a publishing format for graduates of Bowling Green State University's noted Master of Fine Arts program. Itinerary provided early publication credits for such distinguished BG alumni as Carolyn Forche, Charles Fort, Jean Thompson, Tony Ardizzone, Dara Wier, Allen Weir, and many other fine poets, fiction writers, and essayists.
What they want: "Mid-American Review is an international literary journal dedicated to our mission of publishing the best contemporary fiction, poetry, nonfiction, and translations"
PUBLISHING RULES
-Must be 6,000 or less words
-Only one story per submission or five short stories
-Excepts fiction, non fiction, shorts, and poetry
-Takes five months to get back to you
-Takes submissions from both established and new writers
-Does not except submissions through E-mail
-Encourages both experimental and traditional writing
Audience: is all inclusive, the journal actually wants a wide variety of people submitting work to the magazine.
Submission:all submissions, either via postal mail or by using our online submission manager. MAR accepts submissions year-round.
Upcoming events:provides nine week on line workshop, the last one was October 5, 2009—December 5, 2009. There is also a The Mid-American Review Festival of Writing every November.
What they want: "Mid-American Review is an international literary journal dedicated to our mission of publishing the best contemporary fiction, poetry, nonfiction, and translations"
PUBLISHING RULES
-Must be 6,000 or less words
-Only one story per submission or five short stories
-Excepts fiction, non fiction, shorts, and poetry
-Takes five months to get back to you
-Takes submissions from both established and new writers
-Does not except submissions through E-mail
-Encourages both experimental and traditional writing
Audience: is all inclusive, the journal actually wants a wide variety of people submitting work to the magazine.
Submission:all submissions, either via postal mail or by using our online submission manager. MAR accepts submissions year-round.
Upcoming events:provides nine week on line workshop, the last one was October 5, 2009—December 5, 2009. There is also a The Mid-American Review Festival of Writing every November.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Blog 21
Of all of Theil's revisions ideas, I decided to use the idea on page 90 which wants the writer to take a piece of their writing that is crucial for setting the tone of the piece and see if you can further elaborate.
For my third essay I wrote about my parents visiting their homeland for the first time in ten years, I thought i could elaborate more on my experience in meeting some of my familys friends and family. When I met them in my parents homeland I had never met those people before and have never met them again. I was young back then but vividly remember that day, there is so much from that day that I did not write about in my original essay that I can elaborate on. I also have the ability to get more information from that day from my mother and father to fill in some of the blank spots in my memory.
I think that piece of the essay really set the tone for the rest of the piece because the entire essay was about my parents trip to their homeland, and the entire trip to their homeland was to connect with the people they had not seen in years. That event was only one day out of the week long trip, but it was the center piece of the entire trip. Theres so many things we did that day, so many people i met, and so many memories.
For my third essay I wrote about my parents visiting their homeland for the first time in ten years, I thought i could elaborate more on my experience in meeting some of my familys friends and family. When I met them in my parents homeland I had never met those people before and have never met them again. I was young back then but vividly remember that day, there is so much from that day that I did not write about in my original essay that I can elaborate on. I also have the ability to get more information from that day from my mother and father to fill in some of the blank spots in my memory.
I think that piece of the essay really set the tone for the rest of the piece because the entire essay was about my parents trip to their homeland, and the entire trip to their homeland was to connect with the people they had not seen in years. That event was only one day out of the week long trip, but it was the center piece of the entire trip. Theres so many things we did that day, so many people i met, and so many memories.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Blog 20
I plan on revising essay number three. I believe I could add much more to the story including what happened before I left the country and what happened after I came back. Also I got more information from the trip from my family that I was to young to remember. Also I think my third essay is just a whole lot more entertaining than my last essay. I think a essay about travel is just more intriguing to people, especially since most Americans are like me and do not travel very often outside of the country.
I want to add a story about me going to the hospital and having to get my shots in order to be able to travel outside the country. It was an interesting story cause I remember I never cried as hard as that day and I made such a scene that my mom still talks about it today.
I also went to add a story about what happened when I came back from the vacation and immediately had to begin school for the first time.
I want to add a story about me going to the hospital and having to get my shots in order to be able to travel outside the country. It was an interesting story cause I remember I never cried as hard as that day and I made such a scene that my mom still talks about it today.
I also went to add a story about what happened when I came back from the vacation and immediately had to begin school for the first time.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Essay 4
The only toy that has ever held my interest for an extended period of time was the first video game system I ever received, it was an 8 bit Nintendo. I got it when I was four during Christmas, all I remember was my brother going crazy when he found out what it was. Me on the other hand didn't know what it was, I was more interested in the box that the video game came in. But over the years that I had so many great memories from that simple toy.
I observed my brother playing Nintendo for several hours straight and could not believe it was able to hold his attention for that long. At that age I was so hyper and energetic that I could not imagine even siting still for more than a few minutes. But the day came when I was sick and unable to do any playing inside and out, I was tired of the Brady bunch reruns on TV and I certainly was not going to read so I decided to try out the Nintendo. As soon as I played the first game I was hooked, Mario was the first game I ever played because it came free with the system. The beauty of Mario is that you can just pick up the game and play it, it wasn't as complex as today's games. So it was easy to play yet still challenging for a four year old. Soon after I got into more Nintendo games such as Zelda, Super Tecmo Bowl, defender of the crown, contra, and others. I became absolutely obsessed with video games and beating each game I got my hands on.
As I grew older there came more and more systems like PlayStation, Super Nintendo, and Sega. I bought all the systems but none where able to hold a candle to my 8 bit Nintendo. Sure the graphics improved, the audio was better, and the games had more memory, but it didn't have the game play of the original Nintendo. All the new games were so spent so much time upgrading all the superficial aspects of the games that it ignored what made games great, the strategies and story. But nobody around seemed to agree, it was all about the new systems that recently came out and the arcades with its futuristic games. I eventually followed the crowd and focused on the newer systems, it was bound to happen anyway because Nintendo wasn't even making any new games anyway.
When I was in junior high Nintendo had been out of style for several years by than, now we had third generation video game systems that made Nintendo look like a dinosaur. These systems used CD's instead of cartridges, and were in 3d instead of 2D. It was all the rage, but at the same time a video game store called funcoland was selling old Nintendo video games for as low as one cent. Over the course of 6 months I bought at least a hundred Nintendo video games and rediscovered the system I loved. Not only me but all my friends as well, it felt like I was a kid when ten of us would gather in our basement and play video games till we had to go home and eat dinner. Of course after awhile another generation of systems comes out and people lose interest again.
But a year ago my uncle visited my house with his 4 year old son who got into my closet and found my old video game system, I hooked it up and hook him on the system. Now every time he comes over we play and have a great time like I did when I was four. He loved it so much that I decided to give it to him, and hopefully he will get as much out of it as I did. It was more than video games to me, it made me and my friends bond and share memories.
I observed my brother playing Nintendo for several hours straight and could not believe it was able to hold his attention for that long. At that age I was so hyper and energetic that I could not imagine even siting still for more than a few minutes. But the day came when I was sick and unable to do any playing inside and out, I was tired of the Brady bunch reruns on TV and I certainly was not going to read so I decided to try out the Nintendo. As soon as I played the first game I was hooked, Mario was the first game I ever played because it came free with the system. The beauty of Mario is that you can just pick up the game and play it, it wasn't as complex as today's games. So it was easy to play yet still challenging for a four year old. Soon after I got into more Nintendo games such as Zelda, Super Tecmo Bowl, defender of the crown, contra, and others. I became absolutely obsessed with video games and beating each game I got my hands on.
As I grew older there came more and more systems like PlayStation, Super Nintendo, and Sega. I bought all the systems but none where able to hold a candle to my 8 bit Nintendo. Sure the graphics improved, the audio was better, and the games had more memory, but it didn't have the game play of the original Nintendo. All the new games were so spent so much time upgrading all the superficial aspects of the games that it ignored what made games great, the strategies and story. But nobody around seemed to agree, it was all about the new systems that recently came out and the arcades with its futuristic games. I eventually followed the crowd and focused on the newer systems, it was bound to happen anyway because Nintendo wasn't even making any new games anyway.
When I was in junior high Nintendo had been out of style for several years by than, now we had third generation video game systems that made Nintendo look like a dinosaur. These systems used CD's instead of cartridges, and were in 3d instead of 2D. It was all the rage, but at the same time a video game store called funcoland was selling old Nintendo video games for as low as one cent. Over the course of 6 months I bought at least a hundred Nintendo video games and rediscovered the system I loved. Not only me but all my friends as well, it felt like I was a kid when ten of us would gather in our basement and play video games till we had to go home and eat dinner. Of course after awhile another generation of systems comes out and people lose interest again.
But a year ago my uncle visited my house with his 4 year old son who got into my closet and found my old video game system, I hooked it up and hook him on the system. Now every time he comes over we play and have a great time like I did when I was four. He loved it so much that I decided to give it to him, and hopefully he will get as much out of it as I did. It was more than video games to me, it made me and my friends bond and share memories.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Essay 4
The summer before my first semester at Kean university was the greatest summer ever, it was the first time that I had the summer off and a vacation. I was also the first time in my life that I was excited for summer to end and to begin school. Everything was going great as I had finally got my car over the summer, earned some money at a job, and ready to finally be treated as an adult. I didn't truly realize how much work it was going to be and how it would change me.
But the start of the new phase of my life didn't go as well as I planned, the very first semester for me at Kean was a disaster. It wasn't like high school where the teachers were on top of you every day making sure you do your work and punishing you if you don't. In college you had to do everything on your own, on your time, with out being looked over all the time. Not only was I struggling in school but all the money I made over the summer I had to spend fixing up my car that I dinged up on a pillar at best buy, and to top it all off my cousin who I was very close to and only three years older than me was already getting married. I was happy for him but at the same time couldn't help think about me and our friendship. He was getting married and moving a couple hours away to Monmouth county in south Jersey. And what I thought would happen did in fact happen, he moved and we grew apart.
By the time I was in my second year I felt like I was just going through the motions, I was doing the same routine day after day. I was passing my classes but I really wasn't anything but an average student, and I was in a huge rut. Every day would be the same thing with me going to the school, going home and watching TV until I fall asleep, and continuing that cycle over and over again. With my cousin having his own life than I became a hermit who lived in his own world. During that time though I took an elective class in illustration which I've always liked, it was one the only class I liked that semester and its where I met my good friend Mike. Mike was in the same position as me, he was a bit anti social himself and thats why we got along so well. We had other things in common as well such as music, movies, and sports but I think it was our similar personalities that had a bond. It also helped me forget about my cousin as well, who I said before I was close to but never really had much in common.
The years at Kean got easier because I was improving in all my classes and actually having a pretty fun social life for the first time in a long time. But like all good things they did not last, as one day mike told me he was a semester away from graduating. I on the other hand was about a year and a half because I was so lazy my first couple of years in Kean, while Mike was taking way more credits a semester. That semester went by so fast that I hardly remember much about it except the end where Mike and I had a blow up. He invited me to his graduation party and I blew it off, after wards we got into a fight and almost came to blows. We never made up and never seen each other again, and I fell back into my rut.
Senior year I actually had another cousin come to Kean, she is five years younger but still pretty close for such a significant age gap. She noticed the mood swings herself and believed that having family there at school with me would help me, and it did. This is the only year we'll be in school together as I'm a senior and she is a freshman, but its been the best year so far. No amount of friends can replace family. I've become so much more comfortable in my remaining year and hope to continue to be when I leave Kean.
But the start of the new phase of my life didn't go as well as I planned, the very first semester for me at Kean was a disaster. It wasn't like high school where the teachers were on top of you every day making sure you do your work and punishing you if you don't. In college you had to do everything on your own, on your time, with out being looked over all the time. Not only was I struggling in school but all the money I made over the summer I had to spend fixing up my car that I dinged up on a pillar at best buy, and to top it all off my cousin who I was very close to and only three years older than me was already getting married. I was happy for him but at the same time couldn't help think about me and our friendship. He was getting married and moving a couple hours away to Monmouth county in south Jersey. And what I thought would happen did in fact happen, he moved and we grew apart.
By the time I was in my second year I felt like I was just going through the motions, I was doing the same routine day after day. I was passing my classes but I really wasn't anything but an average student, and I was in a huge rut. Every day would be the same thing with me going to the school, going home and watching TV until I fall asleep, and continuing that cycle over and over again. With my cousin having his own life than I became a hermit who lived in his own world. During that time though I took an elective class in illustration which I've always liked, it was one the only class I liked that semester and its where I met my good friend Mike. Mike was in the same position as me, he was a bit anti social himself and thats why we got along so well. We had other things in common as well such as music, movies, and sports but I think it was our similar personalities that had a bond. It also helped me forget about my cousin as well, who I said before I was close to but never really had much in common.
The years at Kean got easier because I was improving in all my classes and actually having a pretty fun social life for the first time in a long time. But like all good things they did not last, as one day mike told me he was a semester away from graduating. I on the other hand was about a year and a half because I was so lazy my first couple of years in Kean, while Mike was taking way more credits a semester. That semester went by so fast that I hardly remember much about it except the end where Mike and I had a blow up. He invited me to his graduation party and I blew it off, after wards we got into a fight and almost came to blows. We never made up and never seen each other again, and I fell back into my rut.
Senior year I actually had another cousin come to Kean, she is five years younger but still pretty close for such a significant age gap. She noticed the mood swings herself and believed that having family there at school with me would help me, and it did. This is the only year we'll be in school together as I'm a senior and she is a freshman, but its been the best year so far. No amount of friends can replace family. I've become so much more comfortable in my remaining year and hope to continue to be when I leave Kean.
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